I was like so excited about this! =D
But i know it's still in exam mood.
"Study AG,Physics and Modern maths pun belum lagi!!!"..
I know!
But i'm sacrificing my whole weekends to go to the family trip over study for exam!!!
LMAO!
Anyway,I'm failing anyways.
This year my results are the worst out of the worst!
Next year I'm surely gonna drop class!!!
I know I should work hard, but as hell knows me, I'M FREAKING LAZY!
My 2010 New Year Resolution should include "1)RAJIN! 2)STUDY FOR SPM!".
I think that's gonna be my first New Year Resolution in my whole life!!
I never had any motif in life, so i guess this is a good shot aite ?
p.s:I need tutor for Chemistry, Additional Mathematics and Physics Subjects.Anyone interested? Do contact me. ;) (I'm half serious about this :p. But if you have suggestion or willing to help me, I'll be happy about it. THANK YOU!)
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Episode 17 : Oh My God!
I thought tomorrow exam Biology, then now I'm reading Biology.
Then I saw HIM post about Add Maths!!!
what!!!
I tak study apa pun!!!!
GOSH!!!
Fail larh me!!!!
p.s:dah lah tak pernah pass Add Maths! :p
Then I saw HIM post about Add Maths!!!
what!!!
I tak study apa pun!!!!
GOSH!!!
Fail larh me!!!!
p.s:dah lah tak pernah pass Add Maths! :p
Monday, October 19, 2009
Episode 16 : Being an Admin..
It's tiring!!
I have to keep update ever seconds!!
Can't focus on study and other stuff..
I've to put a limit..
But news come every seconds...GOD!!!
What I'm gonna do now??!!
For now I'm not focusing alot on w-kpop
I only update here and there.
And post a few stuff only.
Since the other admin going to have SPM, I'm not bothering her much.
But do view the blog kayh!
I put a lot of effort on it!
I've put the link on my list of blogs at the right bar.
Thank you!
I have to keep update ever seconds!!
Can't focus on study and other stuff..
I've to put a limit..
But news come every seconds...GOD!!!
What I'm gonna do now??!!
For now I'm not focusing alot on w-kpop
I only update here and there.
And post a few stuff only.
Since the other admin going to have SPM, I'm not bothering her much.
But do view the blog kayh!
I put a lot of effort on it!
I've put the link on my list of blogs at the right bar.
Thank you!
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Episode 15 : Sorry..
I was being immature and ridiculous.
I get mad over something that's aren't relevant.
I know I was wrong.
I was sensitive + egoist.
I accept the apologize (even though I know i don't deserve it).
And now, I want you both to forgive me.
I'm sorry for being immature, for being stupid and mostly for being who I am.
I seriously love you both.
You both light my life when i really needed someone.
I guess that's why I'm acting like this.
Maybe I just don't want to be left out.
Don't want to be left alone...again.
I'm sorry for ignoring both of you.
I'm sorry.
I don't dream for you to forgive me, but i do want you to know that i'm asking this forgiveness.
Again,
I'm sorry for being me. =(
I won't bother both of you anymore, if that's what you want.
I'll try my best to endure it.
Even though it might make me in pain.
p.s:I'm truly sorry.This song is dedicated to both of you.
I get mad over something that's aren't relevant.
I know I was wrong.
I was sensitive + egoist.
I accept the apologize (even though I know i don't deserve it).
And now, I want you both to forgive me.
I'm sorry for being immature, for being stupid and mostly for being who I am.
I seriously love you both.
You both light my life when i really needed someone.
I guess that's why I'm acting like this.
Maybe I just don't want to be left out.
Don't want to be left alone...again.
I'm sorry for ignoring both of you.
I'm sorry.
I don't dream for you to forgive me, but i do want you to know that i'm asking this forgiveness.
Again,
I'm sorry for being me. =(
I won't bother both of you anymore, if that's what you want.
I'll try my best to endure it.
Even though it might make me in pain.
p.s:I'm truly sorry.This song is dedicated to both of you.
Friday, October 16, 2009
Episode 13 : I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M CRYING!
Again, after my dearest "younger brother" case last year, i cried again for people..
As I stated before, I love people around me.
And sometimes, I love people to much.Until i think of them as my own blood.As a part of me.As my family.
That's why I treat them like how I treat my family.
I get angry at them.I scolded them.I give advice.I joke with them.I play with them.And all...
But when they cheated on me, lie to me,and didn't take me seriously when i'm serious. That's where the point where i'm gonna be sad.
That's what happening now.This seconds when i'm typing these words.
One of my "elder brother" didn't take me seriously when i'm serious.
Let me tell the truth.I'm serious when i am.
He think i'm just joking about it.
About that facebook girl, I am kinda jealous.
But hey, it's up to you what you're gonna do about her.
Who am I to butt in your business..??
What I'm really upset is about what happened last Saturday.
I was upset when i knew you were here, but i didn't get the chance to see you.
But I thought I could get over it.And I sorta did.
But when your "dearest boyfriend" provoking me, that's the point where I get very upset.
I feel angry + upset + depressed.
But hey, NO ONE take me seriously aite..?? As i expected.
Because i was so sad with the incident,I decided to delete that "elder brother" as my facebook friend.
But still, NO ONE take me seriously.
Days have passed, but my heart just get more depressed.
All my shoutouts and status, only contains my depression.
Until my other "elder brother" asked me about it.
I told him about the incident. And he asked me to forget about the both of them and about all those.He asked me to not hate people.
So I did.
But after that. The "elder brother" that made depressed, ask me to forgive him.
and i put an icon shaking its' head sideways.Because the sadness that that I remember is so bad. It's hard for me to forgive him.
But as I expected, NO ONE take me seriously.
Then my anger rise again.
After a couple of hours, my other "elder brother" besides the both two that I mention above, ask me; how am i doing.So I said; I'm sick.He asked me to take medicine.Then I said; how can I take medicine when the heart is the on that is sick?
Today, a few minutes before i start typing this post, the "elder brother" that make me depressed say that he was so sorry.
He didn't know that i was THAT serious!
He said that he did want to come and see me.
Owh really??!! I didn't know that? Was that my bad for not knowing? Or my bad for hoping so much?!
I was CRYING when he he send the chat message.
I can't believe I'm in TEARS again!!!!
GOD!!!
In my prayers i always include these people;
1)Me
2)My family
3)My Relatives
4)My "Elder Brothers"
4)My "Younger Brothers"
5)My friends
6)All people in the world.
But lets' say I'm in a hurry.I'll include these only;
1)Me
2)My family
3)My "Elder Brothers"
4)My "Younger Brothers"
4)All people i the world
Thats' showing how much I love THEM!
And how much I trust THEM!
And how much I am HOPING for THEM!
But I know....
...YOU DON'T CARE...
As I stated before, I love people around me.
And sometimes, I love people to much.Until i think of them as my own blood.As a part of me.As my family.
That's why I treat them like how I treat my family.
I get angry at them.I scolded them.I give advice.I joke with them.I play with them.And all...
But when they cheated on me, lie to me,and didn't take me seriously when i'm serious. That's where the point where i'm gonna be sad.
That's what happening now.This seconds when i'm typing these words.
One of my "elder brother" didn't take me seriously when i'm serious.
Let me tell the truth.I'm serious when i am.
He think i'm just joking about it.
About that facebook girl, I am kinda jealous.
But hey, it's up to you what you're gonna do about her.
Who am I to butt in your business..??
What I'm really upset is about what happened last Saturday.
I was upset when i knew you were here, but i didn't get the chance to see you.
But I thought I could get over it.And I sorta did.
But when your "dearest boyfriend" provoking me, that's the point where I get very upset.
I feel angry + upset + depressed.
But hey, NO ONE take me seriously aite..?? As i expected.
Because i was so sad with the incident,I decided to delete that "elder brother" as my facebook friend.
But still, NO ONE take me seriously.
Days have passed, but my heart just get more depressed.
All my shoutouts and status, only contains my depression.
Until my other "elder brother" asked me about it.
I told him about the incident. And he asked me to forget about the both of them and about all those.He asked me to not hate people.
So I did.
But after that. The "elder brother" that made depressed, ask me to forgive him.
and i put an icon shaking its' head sideways.Because the sadness that that I remember is so bad. It's hard for me to forgive him.
But as I expected, NO ONE take me seriously.
Then my anger rise again.
After a couple of hours, my other "elder brother" besides the both two that I mention above, ask me; how am i doing.So I said; I'm sick.He asked me to take medicine.Then I said; how can I take medicine when the heart is the on that is sick?
Today, a few minutes before i start typing this post, the "elder brother" that make me depressed say that he was so sorry.
He didn't know that i was THAT serious!
He said that he did want to come and see me.
Owh really??!! I didn't know that? Was that my bad for not knowing? Or my bad for hoping so much?!
I was CRYING when he he send the chat message.
I can't believe I'm in TEARS again!!!!
GOD!!!
In my prayers i always include these people;
1)Me
2)My family
3)My Relatives
4)My "Elder Brothers"
4)My "Younger Brothers"
5)My friends
6)All people in the world.
But lets' say I'm in a hurry.I'll include these only;
1)Me
2)My family
3)My "Elder Brothers"
4)My "Younger Brothers"
4)All people i the world
Thats' showing how much I love THEM!
And how much I trust THEM!
And how much I am HOPING for THEM!
But I know....
...YOU DON'T CARE...
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