Thursday, December 31, 2009

episode 24 : Songs for Mr Cookie

I feel a burdened in my heart one after another.
Suddenly I'm thinking about Mr Cookie.


This song in this playlist is all for Mr Cookie.'ll put the translation so people could understand the song.




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Music Playlist at MixPod.com




The song "Heartbeat" really portrays me a lot.
All I'm feeling is in the song.
The song really says my heart out.

"
Can you feel my heartbeat
the heart that you stepped all over and left
is still beating. and it’s beating for you

no matter how hard i try to forget
no matter how many new people i meet
why do i keep thinking of only you when i turn around
i don’t want to do this anymore. i want to stop.
no matter how many times i try and try to stop myself
it’s no use. my heart is broken. why

why do i keep doing such foolish things
i know in my head, but why is my heart rebelling
i’m holding on to you and can’t let go.
it still feels like you’re next to me.
i can’t believe in farewell

no matter who i meet, i can’t open up one part of my heart and i keep your place empty
there’s no reason for you come back, but why do i keep thinking that you might come back
why isn’t my heart listening

listen to my heartbeat. it’s beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it’s waiting for you
don’t i know that it’s over. i don’t understand why i’m like this
listen to my heartbeat. it’s beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it’s waiting for you
it still hurts thinking of you. i think of you every time my heart beats

i have to forget. i have to forget in order to live
i have to erase it. if i don’t, i’ll die
stop trying to get her back. she ain’t coming
she’s gone, gotta be moving on
she left. she won’t come back. she doesn’t think of you.

she doesn’t know that i’m waiting for her, she’s doing well
she already forgot about me, totally erased me.
why can’t i do that

listen to my heartbeat. it’s beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it’s waiting for you

my heart is beating faster and faster
my heart is beating faster and faster
my heart is beating faster and faster
my heart is beating faster and faster
"


The song "7 years of love" is what I predict to be my future.
Where I can't seems to forget Mr Cookie and still wanting him.
Well it's been for 4 years now (almost 5 if include this year).
Another 2 years more and it will be 7 years.

"
We met for seven years
No one knew we would say goodbye this easily

However we still separated
With the memories we built for a long time, now gone

How did we at such a young age
Meet each other, I don’t even remember how
Difficult for us to handle the maps of our changing selves

They said saying goodbyes are painful
But I didn’t even have time to feel that
I just thought this is the way staying composed

(Chorus)
But I cried
Time passed it gave me a simple yearning
Different from what my mind was seeing
At first friends then next as lovers
We said we’d stay as friends even if we separated

During those 3 years spent alone
We contacted each other sometimes

Even if I met someone else again
Even I loved again
Whenever I was sad I would call you without a word just tears falling

You have to meet a good person
I thought in my heart without any words
I asked if you still liked me without any thought hoping you say it back

(Chorus)
I know
We had the most pure love
Back then we thought that kind of love couldn’t be done again se we saved it in out memories
Often I feel a cold feeling from you
But now I know you can not ask anything

“I’m getting married” is what you said to me
After that for a long time I was speechless
Then I cried they were your last words to me
For the only words I wanted to hear was that you loved
"


The song "Dead at Heart" portrays how dead I am when i realize i loose him.
But of course we never officially dated and we never meet in rain or sunny days..
It hurts a lot when i know i lost him.
But i still wanting him.
But I know i can't get him back.

"
Really, what did you do during this love year
after letting you go, i felt like i was going to go crazy and die up until yesterday

in that long period of time, there’s only you who left me..
having no other thoughts but of you.. that’s how this year is passing by

the memories of that rainy day when i went to go find you
the clear sunshine that shined down on us when we walked together
none of these have left me.. inside my head, it makes me slowly die

all of my friends have become adults.. but me.. still like an immature child
having no other thoughts but of you.. it’s just like being dead

the memories of that rainy day when i went to go find you
the clear sunshine that shined down on us when we walked together
none of these have left me.. inside my head, it makes me slowly die

i can’t understand our breakup.. even now i imagine our future
even after our breakup, just like how my heart is always living by your side..
it’s as if it’s dead

i stop the moments that i loved you
even when we’re together, i won’t be able to remember you
if i just think that i wasn’t any of these.. then it’s nothing
if i can’t forget you.. it’s as if i’m dead
"




In conclusion it hurt a lot when i loose him.
And it hurt even more because I'm depressed right now.

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